We are well used to discourse about desire, as if it were the most well understood thing in the world.
Yet, it seems that, desire is actually more complex than we can reasonably credit.
With any desire there are always a number of distinct sensations, to wit…
The state we leave, the state we go to, in addition to, the sensation of this ‘leaving-and-going-to’ itself.
As well as these feelings there are also thoughts, and in every desire there is an overriding thought.
Finally, as a result of this complex of feelings and thoughts there is an affect which acts like an injunction…
‘I am free but I must obey.’
This consciousness clings to every desire as, also, does that focus of intent which fixes itself on one thing with an uncompromising directive, ‘This and this alone is required, now!’
It can be seen…
The ‘I’ has autonomy.
The ‘I’ commands.
The ‘I’ obeys.
And yet, we believe ourselves to be a single entity with a perfect understanding of our desires?